This is what post 25 feels like

So apparently... at some point I became a little bit more of an adult.

My feelings were correct. My longest relationship has come to an end. The thing I've come to realize over the last 2 days since it happened are that it's NOT the end of the world. This revelation is far more significant considering that my last serious relationship's breakup sent me into this nearly yearlong spiral of being bummed out and isolated.

This time... I think it might be the first legitimately amicable breakup I've ever had. Please don't read anything into what this might say about me. O:) Because the more I have thought about it... what do I honestly have to be sad about? The time that I had with him was good (not perfect by any stretch of the imagination) and I don't regret any of it. I'm disappointed that things didn't work out because I did really like a lot of things about him. I'm hesitant to say I have really loved anyone I've been with in a relationship because I don't feel like I've ever been hit by a big love anvil and WOW this person is perfect and amazing blah blah.. According to him, he wants to be friends still and I can live with that. I think that in this case, the breakup might actually be a positive thing, because if it really wasn't going to work for him then it's good that we didn't spend any more time lying to ourselves that it was working.

So I guess the part that is surprising me is how accepting I am of the fact that our relationship is over and my world isn't. The reality is that I'm still just the same as I was before him as I am now. I'm still amazing. :) Of course, ask me again about this in a couple of days and I'll see how I feel. :p

grrrr

I have a weird feeling... and not in a good way... and I don't like it one bit. >:(

Nobody knows it but me when I slip yeah I slip

So tonight's memorable quote from me was:

"There are a lot of positions he can put me in, but I'm not enjoying this one" -in reference to an uncomfortable question a crush asked me.

I'm going for daily posts here - bear with me! :)

Lazer Blog-inal Rejuvenation

So eventually, my best friend's badgering has won. Here I am, starting a new blog eight years after I had started one way back in high school. Back then, the word blog was definitely not in my vocabulary. I joined Livejournal.com as more of a social network, and because let's be honest, I'm a bit of a voyeur. I'm pretty addicted to knowing what is going on not with just my life, but everyone else's as well. Fast forward past Friendster, OKCupid, Myspace, around 20 seconds on Twitter before I got tired of reading about Solange and her kid, the timesucking monstrosity known as Facebook, and here I am again.

I guess it seems simpler to blog for me. I'm out of practice and I don't know that anything that I write will be of any interest, but I think that it is time that I start stretching my writing muscles again. According to my best friend, there is a lot that I keep bottled inside that needs to go somewhere, so this will apparently be it.

So, building off that point, I am reflecting a bit on moving to Arizona. I have no idea how things would be if I stayed in Nashville, but I don't regret the move for a second. I have a great job and the opportunity to move up within the company, as well as the chance to further my education (slowly, but it's getting done) that I know I wouldn't have had otherwise. I really enjoy what I am doing and I definitely don't dread going to work every day! I think that if my best friend were not here, I don't know that I could say that I would be in the place I am right now. I think that the last 3 years in Arizona have put me through a lot of personal growth. This year especially has shown me that I can accomplish a lot, but I still need to move past a few things. Within the next year, I am going to achieve some really exciting changes to move my life further in a positive direction.

It's just weird writing about myself - I am used to talking about it, but writing is a whole other beast.

Anyways, not every post will be crap about my personal life - in fact hopefully that is kept to a minimum. I do hope to post about the things I enjoy - probably lots of my opinion on current events, and especially my favorite things - music, comic books, and TV.

So thanks for joining me - let's see where it goes!